Picking Up The Pieces

It’s been a while since my last post and I feel it’s time for an update on life. Over the past few months a lot has happened; I quit school, got a job, my court appeal came in and Sophia got a raise. All in all lots of positive things have been happening. I think things are starting to come around and we are finally picking up the pieces of our lives and moving forward.

 First off was when I quit school, it was a hard thing to do but it was necessary. I found out that my credits and my license from this education was not going to transfer to Washington State and that I would have to start over after we moved there. I looked up a few schools where we plan on living and well I found a few that I like and hopefully it won’t take too long after we settle in there for me to go back.

 Well around when I dropped school  I got a great and challenging job just a few months ago and I have to say it’s different than anything I’ve ever done. I work for a place called TCH and they’re a non-profit that run assisted living for the disabled and mentally challenged. I currently work overnights as a care provider in one of their group homes, I help take care of five wonderful women with a range of disabilities and it has been the most remarkable task I’ve ever done and I’ll miss them when we leave.

 So as most know I finally received the judgment from the court of appeals and I received mostly good news.  The order for supervised visits was overturned and my name was cleared of being a threat to my children, but the request for overturning the order for sole custody was denied.  Over all this was what we expected and was a huge win. I now have to go back and get a visitation order and ask to change legal custody to shared. I’m very hopeful at this point and I know things are looking good for me and my boys.

 That leaves me to what our future hold. With Sophia getting a huge raise and her plans to pursue getting her old position back after we move, I would like to say things are really looking good. We plan on getting ourselves together and being out of Arizona by the end of the year and finally starting to settle in and build our lives together. I can see our possible future fall into place now and I can see us having a nice place and raising a family together, I see nothing but good things from now on.

As I live my life, My life into Zoe

Cheers!

The devil’s in the details

So it’s time for an update on what’s going on in my life and to clear the air in what our future plans are. Well in the past few months I found out that my massage education would not transfer to Washington State nor would they accept a license from my school and they are very picky in what out of state education they will accept. So for the time being I’m no longer in school and will be continuing my education in Federal Way after we move to Tacoma. Well the other thing going on is that we need a steady income to be able to move and without the restrictions of school I was able to find a really decent job.

So, some of you may ask what are the details. Well for one my new job is working at a group home for mentally & physically challenged adults, my employers are a NPO called The Center for Habilitation or TCH. I have to say it’s a great job and it’s really a great challenge for me and I never ever thought of working in a group home before this, and I really like it. My job is very rewarding and I get to work with some really great individuals that live in the house I work at, I can’t really talk too much about them because of client confidentiality but I can say that they are uniquely wonderful. I am partially out at work, meaning they know that I’m a lesbian and that I’m in a wonderful relationship. What they don’t know is that I’m transgender and really that’s my personal choice as I enjoys just being one of the girls and finally be the woman that I truly am, I’ve decided that  I don’t need to share this detail with everyone and that it’s need to information and that’s fine and dandy for me.

The next thing that is going on in my life is that my appeals is being worked on through the courts and a judgment is expected within the next few months at the very least and that will get the ball rolling for new negotiations with Chanel for more time with my boys and more legal custodial rights and the end of the unjust judgment that was put against me over a year and a half ago. I really want to start working towards something that’s more permanent, something that would allow me to see my boys during their time off from school and also make sure that my family can see them without issues or manipulation either. I also want to have the ability to see and talk to my boys over the phone or via webcam on a set schedule and upon reasonable request. Just because I’m leaving the state doesn’t mean I’m leaving my boys behind. As a mother I must be there for them in any way I can and leaving them out of my life is not an option.

This brings us to the last part of my update. I know that I’ve talked about moving to Tacoma WA off and on and well since I have a job now we finally have the income to save up for the big move. Honestly we’re shooting for this next fall right after my oldest birthday, but we’ll know more as or funds build up. I’m hoping to be in our new home for the holiday season and I can’t wait to get out of this state and start working on a more permanent career and building a new life with Sophia. This is the goal and I hope for the best that we meet it, but in the end we’ll move when we have the money and that’s the most important part. 

So as I continue to live this wonderful life,

my Life into Zoe.

Still missing you

So as of today it's been two months since I've seen my boys. The last visit I've been allowed to have was Dec 23 2012. Every time since then I've been given excuses in one way or another in why I can't see them some legitimate and some downright selfish. I barely get to seem them as it is and my time with them is so restricted to a point that it's heartbreaking. 
Why on earth is it required that this bullshit must continue and the I must have supervision to be with my kids? I'm not a threat to them at all! I never hit them, I never abused them in any shape or form, I'm not a violent criminal or a felon of any kind. Yet I'm accused of being a threat to my kids. There is nothing wrong with me that says I cannot care for my boys nor that I need someone to watch me to make sure 
I do so, this sucks!!! I just want to see my boys smiling faces again, I miss them so bad and I feel my heart break the longer we don't see each other. :( (SOBS)