So I feel like I still get the third degree and cold shoulder
from people because I talk about my future and things I want to do and have
when right now I haven't been able to pay child support for my boys.
To be honest I talk
about my plan for my future and by no means am I excluding my boys from it. To
me it's an unsaid thing that I would unquestionably be doing if my life was on
track. You don't say when you’re talking about planning "after I eat
dinner, pay my rent do my daily routine that I'm going to go and do this or
that life experience" No this is the unsaid responsibilities that we do
and don't need to talk about all the time.
I plan on my boys be
a active part of my life one day and I plan on helping them to grow up into
fine young men and part of that is helping their mother pay the bills to care
for them. Why do you think I've spent the last 2 1/2 years in school? I need
the education to have a new life, income and career so that I can do these things. I can still help my boys and still be a good
parent to them but I can’t do it on 8 hours a month and with everyone thinking
I'm a horrible parent. I’m a damn good
parent and if people would let me I would do just that.
This will also be the third Christmas that I’ve missed out
on with my boys and to be honest I’m sick of it. I’m not a danger to my
children, nor am I confusing them or threaten their health in any way. My boys
love me and miss me when I’m not with them and I the same. My boys know me as a
woman and don’t remember anything else. I’m ready to have them back in my life
and it seems that the stubbornness of my ex-wife and her ignorance will bar me
from this to levels of endless frustration. Doesn’t she see that she’s hurting
our boys by keeping me away from them? I
can’t wait till there both old enough to make choices and requests on their
own, maybe they will see what wrongs that have been done to them and make
choice to change their lives for the better, till then I can only hope.
I’ll be waiting for them when they do.
~Zoe
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